Alhamdulillah

My promise to you guys.

Everyday is an epiphany.

Don't let others bring you down. You're amazing. Rise up. Be strong, and confident. Let them know that they'll never get to your core; that they'll never make you feel like you don't matter, that you're not unique.

Be amazing, stay amazing.

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Because it’s been so long… 

I don’t know what to make of it. I’ve lost so much weight in the past three months that I’m going to have to buy a new wardrobe to compensate for it. 

I’ve dropped from a size M to an XS for shirts, and a waist size of 26 inches from 30. Every single shirt that I have drops below my crotch, and the bottom parts of my pants just get dragged against the floor.

This is terrible. I don’t even know how I lost so much weight… and to anyone who thinks that losing weight is a good thing, unless for nutritional purposes, be fucking prepared. 

When I wear my normal clothes, I feel disgusting. I just look at myself in the mirror as see my plaid shirts just cover my crotch area. I look at how my pants sag, and wonder… can I even breathe? Why do I feel like as if I’m suffocating.

I shouldn’t feel like this; but I do. I am currently ashamed of how I look. I’m going shopping on Monday to get a whole bunch of XS clothes. Dear God, I hope they have pants my size.

Bottom line, don’t make yourself feel disgusting. It’s your body, feel confident. I will feel much better, and confident, after I buy clothes that actually fit… but for now… I’ll just watch my clothes drop to my knees.

Lady Gaga’s May 7th Born This Way Ball - Set B

Lady Gaga’s May 7th Born This Way Ball Make-up - Set A

Note: This was taken after I had cried, and smudged my make-up up. My apologizes. I’ll post a proper picture when I feel like apply make-up again.

Watched Supernatural S07E19 result:

Watched Fringe S04E19 result:

And now Lip Service S02E01 has finished downloading. Emotions. The feelings. All the feelings.. Shoo, please. I can’t take it anymore! Korra’s S02E03 is airing today. No. Stop!

#Good Lord. #I’m Sweating. #That’s Hong Kong for you… #Ignore my fail smile. #Just because.

amillionexpectations:

amillionexpectations:

then yes, you do have something against homosexuals. You’re a bigot basically.

• also, LGBTQ Muslims aren’t speaking out because we want “attention”. We speak out for a plethora of reasons which are individual to each of us. We’re speaking…

This is beautiful. Mash’Allah, why won’t everyone think like this? Or rather, expand their knowledge about homosexuality. It’s okay to be religious and gay.

I remember a long time ago an old woman asked me what I thought about God. I told her that, for the most part, I had lost respect for society of religion. She laughed, and said that she didn’t want to know what I thought about mankind; but rather, what did I believe in - where was my faith?

You can be gay and a religious person… Not in the sense that you follow a religion per say, but have faith in someone out there. Something that you feel is right. Something that you can’t explain.

I can not wait till the day when I open my own bakery. It is the only dream of mine. It’s what I’ve been fighting for. Food, baking specifically, is… it’s just me. I get it. No matter how sad, lonely, angry or happy I feel, baking has always been the place where I can just be me. And I’m good at it. From going on a custard spree to a month of making salted caramel desserts with no regrets, I am good at it - because I love baking. 

Hell, I’d probably even do it in drag, and be like;

And it’s because of you guys. Ever post about food, every reblog about food, it just inspires me even more to reach my goal. Which is why, when the day comes and I have my bakery… I’m going to be making your wedding cake. Four tiers is perfect, I think. To all of my followers if you ever come by my bakery, probably in New York since there’s gay marriage there… or Canada. For free, sweetie… in any style you want.

But until that day arrives…

Here’s why I haven’t uploaded for a (very) long while… I’ve gone drag, in Hong Kong, while working six days a week, and an average of twelve hours per day. Lovely, eh?

I promise next week I’ll have lots of time to post! I’ve got a book review, new recipes, and lots of food to post. Until them, stay amazing!

I know, I know, I haven’t been posting anything at all for a few weeks. I’ve been busy with this thing that’s called, “life” I think. It’s very complicated, and I don’t quiet get it, yet. 

I’ve been busy looking for an apartment, and my new job, working at a restaurant called, Volume H.E.A.T, which is a gay-friendly (but mostly just gay), restaurant creating an entire dessert menu. It’s very time consuming.

Plus I’m going drag for the first time at the end of this month, and I’m getting help from some other drag queens in picking the right dress, and how to not screw my face over with makeup.

I assure you though, once when all of this is over I will be posting… a lot.

I’ve created my own custard recipe that’s light, not overly sweet and perfect with choux pastry, and had it modified for a chocolate custard as well. I’ve even gone as far as using cream cheese to thicken the chocolate mousse that I make, and fold whipped cream into lemon juice to make a lemon filling that’s better than lemon curd.

Yes, y’all will get pictures. I promise that as well. Just, give me time, okay? 

I don’t even know what my hand was doing…

We’re not all sassy or feminist, and honestly if we are, is that a bad thing? There’s still some talk between some of my straight friends who claim that most gay men are, “sassy, and [don’t really] act like a man.” Oh bitch, hold up.

Here’s the thing sweetie, a gay man will always be more masculine than you are. Oh, want to know why, honey? Did you come out to your parents? Did you have the courage to talk to your parents about something so personal, something that they would never be able to tell, unlike the color of your eyes. Something, that they’ve been bullied for at home, school and on the internet. Something that extremist condemn and will try to change it. Something that people will target upon, and make life a living Hell for you. Something that could get your parents, and friends to abandon you. Something that takes more courage than asking a woman for her hand in marriage.

Something that you will never understand or will have to endure, because you live a straight life. A life that is, to an extent, privileged. 

So yes - a gay man, no matter how much of a drag queen or bear he might be.. he has more courage than you, and will always be a better man. 

     Oh God… Like - You have no idea. There’s 에프엑스 with their, “Hot Summer” and 레인보우 with, “A”. I feel like I’m in Seoul all over again.

The mail was a bit late… but my friends really do know me.